We all know you're soft cos we've all seen you dancin

We all know you're hard cos we've all seen you drinkin from noon until noon again.....

reliving the nineties this week and that lyric stuck, dunno why!

So this week, yeah been ok. Did my bike stuff which is actually preferable to running right now cos it's indoors! Missed my interval run, not even sure why now though it was a bit hectic at work so when I take stuff in to do a run at work there are a million reasons why it doesn't get done and then I am too tired. Roll on lighter evenings when my brain is tricked and each day has at least 4 more hours in it.

Was supposed to do the National XC champs yesterday, but woke not feeling great, bad headache that just got worse until I was feeling really sick and had to put my head under a pillow. As a teen I had proper problems with migraine but as an adult it is much improved, still doesn't make it any better when you get one! Went to bed early and almost got up to tell Mr H that I was really worried my head would break but then I pulled myself together. I'm a grown woman and he has no medical training so THAT would've been a pointless exercise :-D Anyway, I did wake up much to my surprise so I had no reason not to go to my second planned xc of the weekend at South Weald, the last fixture in the competition my club Barking Road Runners takes part in. Was still feeling quite sick but its only 7k and I would be first or second scorer for the ladies so I couldn't not go.

Anyway Mr H drove me and my friend Vicky there which was fine and then WE WAITED FOR AN HOUR IN THE FREEZING COLD. Really enjoyed that bit, obvs! but the course is actually really nice, actually Brentwood park run with 2k added. Wore spikes which were fine apart from the stupid laces coming undone twice. Yes of course I bloody double knotted them! Anyway I finished in a better position than any of the other races this season, which pleased me, we won the division which pleased me and I won the ladies club xc title for this year. Oh yes, that pleased me too :-)

Have spent the rest of the day trying to fight the headache away as it is still lurking. I may have won though now I think (fingers crossed)

Anyway, work was alright last week, got some stuff sorted as the boss was over. Always good to do face to face, no misunderstandings then, the next week should be good too. Got a day off on Tuesday to see friends, one of whom is just about to have heart surgery, it will be good to see him before he goes under the knife. Then a stats course on Wednesday, which I am DETERMINED to find useful :-D

That's the team there in case you wanted to see it. Always nice to break up the boring text I think.

Swim out to the ocean.....

drown your thoughts out at sea, dip your hands in the water, same deep water as me.

Oooh that's my calm me down song right now, chills me right out :-) And of course it mentions swimming so technically means I am actually doing some swim training even though I haven't been near a pool in months. BONUS! Although *whispers* I did take my cossie and goggles to the gym on Friday and left them in my locker just in case I get the urge.

I have swimathon 5k in April, I bloody had better get the urge soon :-O

It may be that I havent blogged in months, it may be that I have been insanely busy, it may be that actually I am less than happy with my running ... actually there is no maybe about that one. But there are undeniable facts to be faced.
1. I am too fat to run well
2. I am too fat to run well
3. I am too fat to run well.

Unanimous that really innit! I could be kinder to myself and say I weigh too much to run well but I really do need to kick myself up the bum and do something about it. Not diet, that's stupid and doesn't work, no, just eat properly, stop treating wine like water and stop raiding Mr H's chocolate drawer! (Heh, that's not funny AT ALL)

Anyway as always I have insight, just got to focus on wanting the athletic me to beat the alcoholic fat me! Actually as I say that Suzy our little barrel cat has walked in, she really needs to come running with me, but full kudos to her, she has the drinking under control. She can be my sponsor, I will work with her on the cat biscuit addiction.

Anyway, I am training, this year to do a half ironman which I start having actually trained on the bike, I know! Proper novelty. So it goes like this -

2 watt bike sessions - 1 with short max watt intervals, 1 with lower watts but still hard and longer. Whichever session it is I end up with a pool of sweat surrounding the bike. Luckily I am not at the gym to pull eh?

Then 2 or 3 runs. 1 interval session (love these, they make you feel properly alive) 1 tempo session which currently I have at 5min per k as half marathon pace. For some perspective here a couple of years ago I was looking at 4.35 as half mara pace, so I am way off. Last run usually some sort of race, currently xc which I am doing just cos it hurts, and I want to win the xc trophy at club this year :-D

Then I do a strength session and or see Russ for a coached session.

Obviously I listen to swimming songs too.

Ironically the half IM I had targetted actually wont take place this year so I need to have a think on it and choose another but I am in no rush, the training is enjoyable enough and in April I get to go to Majorca on a training camp with friends which is something I have always wanted to do so if that is what this year is about then that's fine!

I appear not to have mentioned work. GOOD! I am an AL today just so I dont have to be there because last week it drove me so nuts, so nuts that I found a flea on Suzie on Thursday and I had a complete meltdown. I briefly considered burning the flat down but wasn't sure what insurance we had so I have shelved that until I have my facts straight and all my trainers and bike and mac somewhere safe. Obviously the cats will be out and Chris will be at work. Obv!!!!

Better stop now before the evidence is too compelling :-)